What is my Name?

SELF-CHARACTERAZATION

He sits at his desk surrounded by people he does not recognize. He probably doesn’t recognize them because he hasn’t seen any of them before. They do not recognize him, not today at least. Soon those surrounding him will recognize his facial features. This does not make him feel intimidated, it only presents more opportunities for him to spawn companionship. He notices that social evolution takes place on both a micro and macro level. If he were placed in a room full of people close to him his actions would reflect his surroundings. This is not the circumstance though; in this case his actions reflect those of a dog in a brand new house. Like the dog he is eager to become comfortable in the new house.
He thinks to himself, “My friends call me T.J. but should I tell them to call me Thomas? When she calls role should I tell her to call me T.J.?” The thought of being called by a different name almost seems like a fresh start. Once those surrounding him begin calling him by Thomas, his legal name, the name T.J. goes out the window along with his past and everything in it. He has nothing to be afraid of, for some reason it seems that becoming someone else could be fun. Then reality sets in and he realizes no one is defined by his or her name, well no one except for Adolf Hitler. The name Adolf Hitler carries connotations with it that most people are aware of. Had Hilter been a middle class male his name would be just another name.
Now it seems that no one will notice if he starts going by a different name because they never knew him in the first place. The fact that no one here knew him previously makes him nostalgic, but at the same time he feels that good impressions are important. Nostalgic or not he cannot go back to a different place because he is constantly living in the present. For T.J. or Thomas, whichever the reader prefers, the present consists of a hot crowded classroom with new carpet. Then while he notices the new carpet his nostalgia comes back. This is not uncommon for him; every once in a while he will see or smell something and immediately begin to feel nostalgic. It is probably a weakness; living in the past can overcome someone.
Then all at once he snaps back into reality and forgets about the smell of new carpet. He decides that it does not matter what people call him just so long as he gives good connotations to whichever name he adopts. Besides isn’t Thomas a name used in the world of professionals and young graduates? Rhetorical questions do not require an answer. He thinks to himself, “Maybe it would be better to become Thomas when I am a young professional of some kind of graduate. Since my life isn’t over yet and has not necessarily begun yet I will stay content with T.J. and nostalgia.”